the 3rd birthday together

Do u still remember?the first birthday we had together
i was still in konica.
Thought of having some surprise,but the "smelly" sandal of yours crack my plan.
hahaha

The second year?
We had maryam.
I couldn't go out that much alone nor that i have any access to the car since i'm jobless and still less than 100days in pantang
and maryam is still BF and still so small
but mama give us chance.to go out saying we wanted to get some pampers haha
end up we had burgerking
with the groupon voucher u bought


This year is different.
We still had maryam
It's weekend and we supposedly can celebrate it somewhere out there
but i'm at my trimester pregnancy, and we had some limitation to go for vacation
but yet,still,it's your birthday.
Wanted to cook some special things but your nasi goreng kari overcome my plan hahaha
So we end up at caffeology.The cafe i wanted to go for all this while
The food is good(bolehla) thou we have to share thinking of the excess food in MB
but the company is the best=)
Should do it again one fine day after second baby pop out heeee

Ab*ng
Tq for your love all this while
U are cengeng but you are soft hearted.
A kind that is hard to find nowadays
U are suke 'kejap kejap' but your are quite rajin menolong=D
Tq
Maryam,me and soon coming-son pray that Allah give you health,happiness and wealth=P haha
May Allah guide u always so that u can guide us
May Allah protects u from evil intentions and
May Allah shower you with lots of barakah and rahmat insya ALLAH
and keep on being the coolest abi and hubby for us because u never failed to make us keep smiling and giggling heeeeee

5/9/15

More birthdays to come insya ALLAH

together,forever till jannah 

Expectation kills

Expectation kills
how many times i've remind myself.but yet,i still expect from others.

it kills
it leads to frustration and leads to a so no wise actions


don't expect from people.
do your job
if they don't want to do it,do yours,no comment,keep it to yourself
Allah is looking and He is never cruel
always loving and knows the best


I'm in no time going to give birth to the second child soon
This time around,during maryam's birth,I'm not working,less stress
Happier life

But now,I'm working,and the stress is piling up
New sem,new subject and new students
preparation for the maternity leave.
Balancing life between work,a mother and a wife

Quite stressfull

Because I expect
I expect people to help me alot because I'm heavily pregnant
But no.people dont know how u feel.how tired you are.
How stress u are
Only u and Allah knows.

So stop expecting people to help
To give ways
Because the simply dont know

Be strong, do things u did like u wasnt pregnant
Ask Allah for strength.to continue this life

ya Allah,make it easy this time
give me strength to cater all the responsibility
help me to expect less.or yes
no expectation is better.

First kick 2015

So it's now 2015

man that's a long haul since my last post.

Alhamdulillah thumma alhamdulillah for Allah's give.
through islam,family,friends,health and wealth.

1/1/2014 marks the starting of my journey as housewife..
but yeah..being an active homosapien, I totally not good at sitting in the house doing nothing productive except for reading quran,cooking and eating..sometimes i do the laundry and the other time, cleaning the house

so I started to search for new jobs.Job that is more flexible than an engineer.
I got enought with being an engineer in any factory huuu

So the journey started with being a interpreter for Prof XXX from kanazawa dai.
It was tough.
tougher than i thot.
but the pay is worth. The experience is priceless.
But well,from that i know that I can't be a good interpreter. Let alone a translator huhuh
It's only 4 days.but it's really fun and in the same time tiring with my 6months old preganancy

So I gave up searching for job as a translator.
I change my "search keyword" to education
I've sent resume to few taska and tadika but well...the pay is too low..
Man, mana la x dtg kes dera bayi...kalau kerja dr 7am to 6pm with a pay of 900?
Huuuuuu

And  alhmdulillah and idea came.
My naqibah is going to give birth so I can replace her for 2 months in SR*M

Alhamdulillah I finally found the job I like.
The job I enjoy doing.
Not just the teaching process, but doing things for students such as decorate their class,motivation and so on..
but after few weeks,,hahaha


I know I can't handle kids.
They are just uncontrollable. Not to include the hyper-active ones.
But hey, I love them despite their perangai.
But I'm not doing enough justice if I keep on being a teacher for them as I'm not good at it.


So I end my journey as primary school teacher.

I gave birth. A really painful experience. I'll write about it in another post.

The 3rd day after labor, I got an offer as a lecturer in UTeM.
Which I've been thinking from 2011.after I grad my bachelor degree.
Which I've went to the interview during 9months of pregnancy
Which interview I can't answer and doesn't have enough confident to answer

Huhuhu and now,here I am, with 129 exam scripts to mark.
But I love this job, It's flexibility,Until when?

Allah knows better.=)

*am thinking to write often.To wirte is to read. huuu