The month of the year for saying goodbye

 It`s the month of the year of saying goodbye

To the folks from the sam lab

and from the same country

Who graudates with flying colors

And who I adored their motivation and persistence

I will do better this one year left

1. More amal with Allah

2. More time for agama

3. More time to read journals

4. More organise

5. Saying goodbye to the facebook and instagram for a while

I have to I have to I have to

Changes are hard but with changes only we could success

Sincerely,

Noor Saffreena

The one who lost her motivation along the way through a journey

The coincidence

Kelmarin (30/12/2021) was a day to remember.

Back in Kanazawa years on 2012 something, there is one young egyptian woman who volunteered to be an imam for terawih at our international house. I was not living there during that time any longer so I sometimes went and joined.

What amaze me was the woman is about the same age like me and is a hafizah masha Allah!(Married with one kid) Dia punya bacaan quran tu menusuk ke jiwa. Bila baca surah attaubah suaranya marah, bila baca ayat ayat memohon suaranya merintih.

That was the best terawih prayer I had in life and I still remember that moment. 

One day, she was in menses so I was chosen to be the Imam. Nervous gila hoi! And she corrected me after prayer to read the surah in sequence for Tertib. Contohnya rakaat pertama baca annas tetiba rakaat kedua baca ayat kursi...nonono. Taksesuai katanya.

so fast forward it was 2021. 

We went to Halal Ramen 117 as ususal to have our dinner and during the same time there's some egyptian family there. One of them is from the same housing area and we exchange salam. She said she always wanted to say Hi but has no time. Me too. well of course semua org kelam kabut je everyday.

So I knew that her husband was in Kanazawa but I never knew the details(my husband told me).So I asked the duration and what surprise me is they were there in the same years as I am but her husband was doing phd.

So I asked about that hafizah and her whereabout. She was trying to recall name but I could not remember. Then she said..is hafizah a name or the one who memorise Quran? Because she said she is a Hafizah and she did the imam in the international house.

Masha Allah and it was her!ya Allah..the one I was amazed about is just living the next building now! AFter many years and milessss of separation we met again!memang terharu gila la dengan takdir Allah.

She is now blessed with 3 kids and is also having a Quran session in her house during Jumuaah prayer time.Definitely will try to join! 

And yang paling best is...that is her first time to the kedai ramen eventhough her kids has been bugging her to go there but she never wanted to go. memang Allah nak bagi jumpa sungguh.

She left me with a new advice...sister, read Quran even a page a day. Teach your kids a letter a day. Even a letter. 

Harapnya perjumpaan kali kedua ini membuah cinta yang lebih dalam kepada Al Quran. Meberi manfaat untuk agama dan keluarga. 

Kadang kita tak tahukan..kebaikan mana yang orang ingat sampai bila bila when what we did was what we should have done. Tapi kebaikan yang sedikit tp ikhlas tu Allah pahatkan dalam hati orang sampai bila bila.

Semoga kita semua dapat terus beramal dengan al Quran di tahun yang bakal kite tempuhi ini.

Goodbye to Facebook

 Made a goodbye post in FB.Well, maybeeee just maybeeee people think...weh nak bla bla jela nk goodbye bagai kah3 tapi I think I need to justify for some online friends I have known for years. Tetiba aku hilang,mati dah ke?mental ke?

So here we goes....tapi adoi nk transfer post from there to here berzaman la habis nya wehhh. Luckily the significant sharing just started a year ago yang lain tu lebih pada luahan perasaan muahahah

Till then, happy new year to everyone!

Akemashite Omedetou Gozaimasu

あけましておめでとうございます

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To stop being involve in others life. Others opinion

To maintain the small circle that I chose to be updated with not every single person on earth. Sometimes to be updated about someone you know online is wayy better than to be updated with someone you have known for years.

I love this facebook. I love the new friends I made throughout my 13years of journey here. I love the information and I love the sharing

This have been my space for all these years. The space I spent time when I was left alone in Kanazawa. The place I grew up with as a mother. The place that somehow has influenced my way of thinking. The place where I grow my bussiness from zero to many zeros and back to zero again.

The place where I share all my thoughts. I spilt all my feelings and I burst out all my inner conflicts.

But somehow it has influenced me too much that at one point of life, it has overtaken me over my brain. The comments and the opinions.

So for the better me. For the happier me and for best of my akhirah. I'm withdrawing from here perhaps forever(or maybe occasionally activate back to peek on the awesome people updates hehe).

You can still read my story in cahayaperjalanankami*blogsp*t.com where comments are limited to those registered. and also FB messenger for anything urgent.

Till then .

I am sorry for all the wrong doing which intended or not.

Transferring the post here to the forever left alone blog bit by bit.

I am writing this for friends that I have known here for years and some which I still have some matters unsolved(soalan etc).

For those yang rasa benda ni tak ada keperluan you can just scroll through.

Thank you

Tips menguruskan anak kecil tanpa suami

How do I handle 3 kids under 5 without my husband for 40days?
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I know there are many mothers out there that are more experience in sharing things like this than me.
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But i feel like sharing so nak baca bacalah taknak boleh scroll muahahaha Just because I need to write but my mind isn't working good enough to write any better sharing hahahaha
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So how did I go through my days?
(Another 15 days left)
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1. I don't think too much. If you think too much u'll get exhausted of thinking and frustated too..
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Bila anak menangis, jgn sibuk fikir apa dia nak, just hug

Kalau anak bertekak, jangan sibuk fikir nak solve kan, just let them be. Pandai la jap lagi gelak balik semula.

2. Plan ahead
Esok nk g kerja jam berapa nk bangun, mandi budak, masak breakfast or beli, brg apa nak beli etc

3. Be happy. Must! Muahahaha
Eventhough you are not happy at work, make your self happy before coming home.
Cakes, treats etc doesn't make you happy. It'll make u crancky afterward. Allah makes you happy. Ask from HIM.

4. Engage with your innerself. Apa yang saya perasan, emak emak yang happy ni emak emak yang kuat innerself /self control dia.
Talk always to yourself..
Saff, budak tu balik sekolah penat, they miss you, they are boring, they wants to play, that's why expect some crankiness from them after 6 ok.

5. Do what ever you wanna do!
U want to do activity with them, just do.
U want to eat out just do
U want to go to the playground just go(they love it and tempat paling susah dia nak meragam)
Back to number 1, Don't think too much

"Kalau budak berak sapa nak jaga yang kecik"
Kalau jatuh cmne, kalau parking jauh cmne, kalau hujan mcm mana, lecehnya nak bawak air bagai.

When u can't do anything because of your husband absence then, it'll make you more frustated!huhu

6. Believe in you kids! They can behave. They can understand and they are matured. Yes. Believe in them and insya Allah they will behave accordingly. Tapi biasa la kekanak kdg luar alam sikit perangai.

So cheer up and enjoy!
(Sis pun mmg jd rimau jugak muahahaha we are human but when we keep on reminding ourself, then insya Allah, Allah helps)
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Rumah mak ayah sis 5minit je tp weekdays by maghrib dh balik rumah and weekend mmg tak pergi sana sbb tak nak kacau weekend diorang unless ada event(kenduri etc)
And I think they behave better when i'm alone.
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To all PJJ mothers, you are awesome!
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*Kalau perasan yang belakang tu tgh bukak baju
Dia main tukar2 baju dengan kakak dalam kereta. Whatever janji happy.
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#takpakaicarseatjangankecam
#fokuspadayangnakdisampaikanhehe

UPSR 1999

HARINI UPSR ke?
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Padanlah anak anak jiran pepagi dan happy main kat laman. Tak sekolah ke bebudak ni? Rupanya dapat cuti.
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Eh asal UPSR asyik terkenang kenangan 20 tahun lepas (eh dah tua!) 
balik rumah selepas paper pertama, kena hambur dengan mak pasal.....
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Orang suruh tulis karangan sambutan hari guru. Aku confident tulis sambutan hari IBU!
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Hikmahnya?
1. Rajin solat sebab nak keajaiban berlaku. Solat terawih siap u.(masa tu mcm puasa akhir tahun kot)
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2. Rajin doa nak keajaiban berlaku lagi hahahaha
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3. Be a positive motivated person sebab masih percaya pada keajaiban Allah.
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Yela percubaan 5A kot.peringkat negeri. Percubaan 5A masa tu memang konon2 teror la.
Hahaha sekali result sebenar 4A 1C.
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Dan di situ lah bermulanya ku belajar agama...sebab terpaksa masuk sharodz hahaha (tu pun atas rayuan mama berulang kali)kalau tak acah acah nak masuk SBP gitttewww.
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Hikmah yang sangat besar pada kegagalan yang sedikit.
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Yang melorong kepada di mana aku sekarang ..
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So mommies jangan pressure sangat anak anak hehe if the success is for them, it will be. Yang penting dia dan usaha kan.
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Semoga berjaya semua anak UPSR sekalian!
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Berjaya dengan apa yang kita ada SEKARANG

Terlalu kerap kita melihat kejayaan orang lain dan berfikir..oh aku pun nak buat mcm ni la.
"Kalau aku buat mcm tu pasti boleh berjaya macam dia."
Syoknya dia buat mcm tu..and so on.
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Tetapi kita lupa kejayaan sebenarnya ada di depan mata kita. Dengan apa yang kita miliki SEKARANG.
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Bukan apa yang di miliki oleh orang lain. 
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Berusaha dengan apa yang kita miliki. Berbuat sebaiknya. Hasilkan kejayaan yang gemilang.
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Kerana Allah sudah tempatkan kita di sini untuk mencipta kejayaan. Bukan di sana.
Cuma masa kejayaan nya yang belum tiba.
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Kerana zaman sekarang kita terlalu asyik melihat orang hilang lupa dengan apa di depan mata.

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Peringatan untuk hamba yang lemah

AL kisah kedai ninso

AL KISAH KEDAI RM2
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Sebenarnya dah lama fikir cara nak sort baju kami 5 beranak.
Gantung? I don't prefer
Bakul? Macam kedekut nak beli bakul sebab quite pricey and i need 3more bakul.
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So i read a post from a member of Deco kedai eco.
Rm2 je guys untuk satu bakul!ok. Rm2.10.ke 2.20?ontahla.
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I'm not a kedai rm2 lover because the location is not near to me, I don't bring my own car during office hours, the abi didn't approve the kids to go to that kind of kedai(crowded dengan pelbagai manusia)
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So aku tahan je nafsu ni muahaha. Dan last week was the peak of it.
Interview, submission of paper, anak tak sehat, travel after travel so baju berlambak tak sempat lipat.
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Ahad pagi sis request keluar seorang. 2jam je haha
Berbekalkan rm25 sis terjah  kedai ninso yg about 2.5km from here(orang Melaka ni mana mana pn jauh muahaha)
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Ya Allah amazed gila.
Kali pertama masuk kedai rm2 tanpa anak dan ample time.
Dengan anak masuk 3-4kali kot.
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Terus ku sambar bakul, dan segala maknenek lain muahaha terasa noob bila orang cakap kedai berhantu. Baru terasa aura hantu dia.
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Tapi lepas setengah jam kepala mula berpusing hahaha
Sebab ko tak biasa dengan lokasi, dan terlalu ramai orang.
Fine.
Beratur pun ko tak tau aturan dia mcm mana ko main potong je barisan hahaha
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Takpelah.
Yang penting lepas tu anak anak happy utk sort baju masing masing
Umi happy habiskan sebakul sebakul
Lepas lipat masuk dalam bakul n bawak g laci utk susun.
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Happy mom
Happier home.
Heheheh
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