hurmm

betul ke nak kerja ni..

betul ke nak balik malaysia dan kerja..

betul ke nak balik malaysia dan kerja dalam bidang engineering, dominated by man?

betul ke nak balik malaysia dan kerja dalam bidang engineering  dominated by men dan pakai baju uniform tu?

betul ke?

betul ke nak balik malaysia dan kerja di tempat itu yg walaupun dekat dengan rumah, ada kawan sekolah menengah rendah,menengah atas,kawan aaj,senpai dan junior dan even mad`u kat jepun berkumpul dalam satu syarikat?

oh..

the future seems so blur..


kalau xberani nak terjun ke gaung mcm tu,bila lagi nk rasa the real malaysian realities.
kalau asyik nak duduk dalam kelompok org org alim sopan santun, sentiasa rajin menolong,bila nya nak tlg sebar cahaya dan berkongsi rasa dengan mereka yg masih mencari cari?

simply because i dont think i`m brave enough to face the reality
simply because i`ve been in comfort zone for too long
6years!

I was in all-girl school for 8years.and i think i've spoiled all the nilai murni entering the mixed school for 2years and foundation for 2years.

and Allah send me back to the comfort zone.
yes the first and 2nd year might be a bit failure  but the rest is a bless alhamdulillah


i wonder what's wait me in the future?
for all this while,my future have been so cleared.
and the path has been so smooth alhamdulillah


mungkin..yg ALLAH nk tarbiyah bukan masa hadapan yg terang di depan mata
tetapi pengharapan yg tulus ikhlas,tawakal dan berharap pada Nya dgn masa hadapan yg sgt kelam ini..

jika itu yg menjadikan kami hamba ya ALLAH dalam erti kata sebenar benar hamba..
maka jadikan lah kami hamba yg redha dgn ketentuan ini .

-it's mid autumn.and then winter..-